la ti da! wow it's been a freakin huge long forever and day time since i wrote in here last! my new year's resolution will be to start writing in here! i know it's a gay resolution..but i already blew my last one. my first resolution was to only drink water for a year..but that lasted about 3 days! come on..i can't live without sweet tea!!

yes well school is ok. my new classes are pretty hard. i'm not gonna lie to ya. suckage. the people in them are cool though..so it's ok i suppose. church is going well..except that cody is leaving. our youth pastor. but i don't wanna get into all that mess. well andrew has been coming to church with me so that's cool.

me and cole are great! i love you loads pumpkin!! you mean the world to me. every time i am with you i feel amazing. you make me want to be a better person. i pray that this lasts!! i couldn't imagine a better guy than you!

my god time is going well too. i'm still writing in my prayer journal every night and it's amazing. wow i really love jesus.

i'm having some issues with my daddy at the moment so pray for me and for him.

well i actually got all my pre-cal homework done already so i have all this extra free time..hince why i'm writing in here i guess.

YES WELL TARA...my number is 817 233 0817!! quit freaking losing it!!! lol

ok well i think i'm gonna go play my guitar a little before church! i love you guys! you should all leave me comments just cause i haven't written in here for so long and i feel lonely!

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wow! i have not updated in a whole week! sorry guys! i have been soooo busy. fun busy but busy. i had madrigal this past weekend and man am i happy that's over. saturday night was horrible but whatever. it was still fun. we probably had more fun on saturday when we were messing up and none of us even cared anymore.

yes so christmas is coming up! woot woot! and i think that it's freakin gay how no one can say christmas anymore. just cause it says CHRISTmas in it. that's freakin dumb. i'm so pissed about that. i mean honestly it's not fair. jesus gave us everything and look what we are doing! we can't even give him one special day out of the whole flipping year! ahhh! it makes me so mad. people need to get over it and accept it. i mean...us christians never put up a stink about kwanza or whatever crazy crap that is..ahhh

well i gotta go..

i'll write later.

cole is over

yea so mission trip was freakin amazing! i love all you guys in underground youth! all the kids down there in san antonio were just wonderful and i had so much fun talking to DeVonte. he is the little boy that i met there during the summer. we still talk on the phone and send letters to each other and stuff. i wanna get him something for christmas that i can ship down there, but i don't know what to get. if you guys have any ideas as to what a 10 year old boy would want then let me know!!!!!

so tonight Cole is coming over to help me with my physics project. blah...it's due tomorrow. i hate physics so much. our teacher is crazy. i hate physics!!!! she even gave us other homework tonight! what's wrong with her?!?! did i mention that i hate physics?? just in case i didn't....I FREAKING HATE PHYSICS!!!! lol

well cole is still amazing...what else is new? we held hands on the bus! ahhhhh! but shhhh! he's so wonderful. i don't deserve him and he treats me so good. i love you cole. i never thought a relationship could be like this...

ok well i just wanted to update before you crazy kids started givin me crap. lol

oh btw....do you know who i got to know really well on the trip?? STEPHANIE AVERY! ahhh you are so awesome girly! i so didn't know you were that crazy. lol and i must admit, Z's eyebrows look amazing. i'm a god! BOW DOWN!

ok well i'm gonna go ahead and get on my homework *tear*

leave me some lovin'

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yes so today i am staying home from school. not skipping mind you, but just staying home. SO I CAN WORK ON MY STUPID PHYSICS PROJECT THAT IS DUE TUESDAY!!!!! eek gad!!! you hear that?? Tuesday! that's like...less than a week! someone should just shoot me now! there's no way i can get it all done. i have to work tonight and tomorrow night, and i'm in San Antonio (woot woot) saturday and sunday. so i guess that leaves monday and there's no way i can do it all monday after school. blah...so i've made the executive decision to stay home and do it when i should be at school taking thousands of pages of notes. god knows i will miss those notes today. oh and for all the peeps in my history class....hail hongola!!!! for all those people not in my history class...haha i love you guys anyway!!!

well church was good last night. Cody talked about anger. hmm...anger..  like this....... @%$^#&*!@*!#! hahaha Cody is a good guy. me and him have been through a lot and i can talk to him about stuff. he really helped me get through my last relationship and do what needed to be done.

Lord,
you are so amazing and awesome. without you i am nothing. i don't deserve your love or your patience. please send your love through me so that i can be a light for you. fill my heart with your awesome power and help me live a life worthy of your grace.
Amen

haha i'm so happy that i'm not at school. wow..it just kinda hit me. hahaha it really sucks for you people at school. hahaha

to cole...i'm speechless. there isn't a single thing about you that i would change. you are so very special to me and i'm so happy that i found a good guy that loves the lord with all his heart. this is how it needs to be. you mean just so much to me and i missed seeing you yesterday. *kiss* oh snap!!!!

ok well i'm gonna go head to radio shack to go buy some wire and some other madness. blah...if you have any ideas for my motor your input would be greatly appreciated!

comments are my sunshine!!!!

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i have to admitt that cole is the greatest thing that's happened to me. where would i be without him? i feel so safe with him and like everything will work out.

God,
 please bless our relationship and let it last. thank you for letting me realize how awesome relationships can be and how being with someone can truly make you a better person. thank you for him.

tara, i must admit that i'm a bit depressed about missing out on gilmore girls. i'm telling you that the tears wouldn't stop last night. lol

btw....i don't know about the rest of you guys.....but i was dying not having D Team last week. i can't wait to start back up again. i miss you guys! but i'll get to see you tonight!!!!

everyone wish cole luck tonight as he trains/interviews/i don't really know for his new job tonight!!!!

oh and...i'm gonna quit my job! *tear* anyone got any ideas as to something i would be good at to bring in some bucks??

you guys should definately leave me loads of comments cause i'm special like that!!!

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